April’24- Dreams and day-to-day

Dodoosin
2 min readApr 13, 2024

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I’ve been thinking a lot of new things.

Things I’d never have imagined before.

Now it’s very obvious that the older I get, the less I can focus on my dreams? Because I have to focus on the day-to-day. Taking care of the day-to-day I’ve forgotten my dreams in the first place

Kid, believe in yourself! You are awesome- you’re smart, hardworking, tenacious, you run, you write, you even got the best speaker award although you friggin hate speaking…you’re awesome and you can do anything in life, and a PhD is of course doable for you….

You can also do other incredible things like becoming an author, or a pro-chess player, or clear upsc, or teach for india, or become a social worker, or become a journal editor- you can do whatever you set your sights on…..

But you gotta know baby, you gotta know what you really, really want? How do you figure that out?

““I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”- Sylvia Plath

Dreams, dreams, follow your dreams they all say. I had dreams too when I was a kid, when I was young, when I was still naive and my eyes shone bright. I’ve lost that glean in my eyes now, and everything is so dull and isn’t life pointless when nothing sparks you? It’s becoming more like surviving every day, back then I used to be excited and conquer each day.

Any career option you give me- theres nothing that makes me tick, except perhaps writing. Isn’t it odd that I just felt that way about writing exactly while writing? The other options make me feel- umm yeah I got the skills for this and they may pay me well, but writing?- It puts a smile on my face.

I want to write like Neil Gaiman- give people a beautiful escape from this world that can get overwhelming and depressing.

But what about my PhD then if I wanna become a writer? And what kind of writer should I become? I kind of have a feeling I’d be doing something I didn’t list here, 5 years from now…Life is crazy like that!

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Dodoosin

Poetry and some random words. Grad student trying to document my PhD journey semi-anonymously.